Ok now that I told you what you can expect here, I am ready to answer my original question: Why Substack? Why Now?
Above all else, amidst all of my jobs & callings, I am a Poet.
I understand the limits & bad politics of social media & it also makes me high in a way that works for me, to share my work there.
There are people that I love & respect who are spending more & more time here & I love to dwell in their spaces.
It feels simple & clean.
So there’s that.
I have been a “healer” “teacher” “mentor” for many many years in the form of spiritual coach, astrologer & kundalini teacher. This is how I made a living.
Having an audience is important to me.
I do not believe in being a guru although I am highly charismatic {or have been told so}.
Still figuring that one out but it feels important to say here.
I like people to take what they like & leave the rest. To sidle up to the Mystery however they please.
Although my spiritual work had been fairly successful, I found myself resentful, giving what I thought was too much. I felt like people thought they knew me & that made me ridiculously & irrationally angry.
I felt out of balance, that there was a more effortless & clear way, a more humorous way, a more subtle way, a more real way, a more ME way to communicate & work with people.
A year ago, I took a big break from teaching in a direct way.
I started making memes {because it made me happy}. I decided to make memes as much as I wanted & curate them & combine them into stories, lessons, parables, poems.
I felt my language ooze & gush & flow, in ways that fully communicated how my mind connected with the Divine (this is true, don’t judge). Like really good sex. Like being insanely alive.
I felt generous & spontaneous.
The rest of my life relaxed & flourished. Miracles occurred.
I wanted more space. I needed more space. I wanted to write more. I wanted to post whatever memes I wanted. I wanted less bot/clueless censorship. I wanted a semi-private world that I could spread out more & invite people in, where they had more space to be themselves.
So here we are. We are all doing our best. I love you so much.
PS I will continue to post here every day this week for free before installing a paywall (here & there, there will always be free material). It really isn’t much. Hopefully that will feel appropriate in regards to what you receive 💞